Beta #3 Results

My beta today is 1437!!!!!!! It should have been at least 1300 today. This is wonderful news!!! My next beta will be on Monday morning and if it's above 2000 (which it should be!), my nurse said my first ultrasound will probably be late next week. I'm so excited!!!

I have to really watch myself when I pray with Jack before bed every night. I make time to pray seperately to thank God for giving us another chance to be parents again. To pray that he protect the baby or babies growing inside of me, and that he continue to breathe life into them. I would normally do this with Jack, and what I used to say before we got great betas was "please help us continue to grow our family in the way that you see fit." I didn't specifically ask for babies in front of Jack, and I realized that while He may not see fit for us to carry another child, He may have wanted us to go in the direction of adoption. I am so grateful for what God has given to us throughout our lives.

I still find it hard to believe I'm pregnant again. I've been battling a cold these last few days (Thanks Jack!) and yesterday was the worst with body aches. I haven't had any fevers (I haven't felt hot, but haven't taken my temps either). I'm trying to ignore the cold and enjoy not being nauseated, or throwing up for however long it lasts.

Beta #1 Results

Drum roll please............Today's beta (10dp6dt) is 284!!! It's a great number. I'm thinking it's only one little one in there (which is perfectly fine). At 12dp3dt with Jack (so 15 days after ovulation), it was 161, so it is higher, but not that much higher.

This clinic handles things a little differently than when my doc was by himself at the last one. At the last one, we had two betas to make sure the numbers were doubling, and then we scheduled an ultrasound for about a week and a half later to check and make sure the sac was in the uterus. About a week to 10 days later we had another ultrasound to detect a heartbeat. This clinic does betas every 2-3 days until we get close to 2000, at which point we have an ultrasound to make sure the sac is in the right place, and another week to 10 days later we have the ultrasound to do the heartbeat check. If my numbers double correctly, I expect to get the go-ahead to schedule my ultrasound sometime next week.

I asked the nurse when most people decide to tell their young children about the pregnancy. I'm definitely not ready to tell Jack now, but I imagine once I see a heartbeat, I'll feel more comfortable with it. She said every family is different, they recommend waiting until there is a heartbeat, and some families will tell the kids then, others will wait until they are out of the first trimester. If I am sick like I was with Jack, I will likely tell him why so that he isn't worried about me. He's very sensitive which makes it hard for me to judge when to tell him, but he dealt with the lack of pregnancy pretty well last time when we had to tell him that the babies didn't stick around and went to heaven. He gets upset when people are sick, and he wants to know why. He knows that when he was in my tummy, I was very sick. So I imagine he'll ask. Heck, he asked me right after my transfer, "Mommy, you got babies in that big fat tummy?" Yes, he actually said that, but it's my own fault because he's asked before and I just tell him, "No, Mommy just has a big fat tummy." So I wasn't offended when he said that, I actually busted out laughing. When he asked this last time after the transfer I told him I didn't know. I didn't want to say "No" and have that be true, but I didn't want to say "Yes" only for this not to work and have to explain it to him again.

We'll see what happens. I've prayed to thank God for giving us this blessing so far, prayed that He continue to breathe life into however many babies are in there, and prayed that He would help us know when the right time is to tell Jack. All we can do now is sit back and wait to see how this continues to develop.

Goals for 2011

New Year's Resolutions sounds so......well, definite, and we are human, so this year I am making "goals".

My goals for 2011 are:
-whine/complain less-this will be a huge one for me, I've gotten to be very whiny admittedly. Maybe Jack has rubbed off on me????

-be more active with Jack-whether playing with him on the floor more with cars (which isn't my favorite thing to do-I'd rather play games with him), going to the playground more, or just having more playdates, this is one of my biggies. It won't be much longer before he is starting school 5 days a week, and then our "at home" time will be much shorter-this is a biggie for me too.

-Lose some weight. If I get pregnant and am sick again, this may not be so hard (and I won't be able to guarantee my first goal). If I don't get pregnant, my big butt better be motivated to hit the gym.

-Have more "dates" with Archie in the coming year. We've let alot of that go with having a kid, and we need to reconnect. He also wants to lose weight, so maybe some dates will be going to the park together and exploring while Jack is in school.

-My biggest goal for 2011 is to get pregnant and have a healthy baby. This is the one I pray most about, and the one I am getting most excited about.

What are your goals for 2011??????

Dreams

There isn't too much going on for me to post about, so I thought I'd tell you about some things that have happened, dream-related, over the last week.

I had a dream about a week ago, that one of my coworkers was going around telling people that I was pregnant and I was so mad. This dream however really didn't make too much sense because in my dream, I looked like I was about 32 weeks pregnant, so how people wouldn't have known already is beyond me. But it was a funny dream, and if it can't be real, dreams will have to suffice for now!

Then when I was at work the other night, one of our unit secretaries, told me that she'd had a dream about me. In it, I was pregnant (I had to ask how pregnant when she got further into it, it's the NICU nurse in me, and turns out I was "huge"), and in labor on our unit in the middle of the hall. She said she had never heard anyone scream like that. She said that one of our other coworkers was having a hissy fit about where the Labor and Delivery team was when they are only one floor above us, and wanted to know what the heck was taking so long. Then she woke up. It's funny because unless I absolutely had to, I wouldn't choose my hospital to deliver, just because I work with all of those people everyday, and I would want some privacy. The other part is that I am a wuss when it comes to pain, so you had better believe I would absolutely not be handling it well!! My coworker did tell me that the last time she had a pregnancy dream about someone, it was another coworker, and that when she'd told the person about the dream, she said she hoped it would come true. This person has a history of 6 miscarriages, and two live children, but she came back a few days later and confided in her that she was in fact pregnant (the result was her youngest daughter).

I could hope right?!?!?