A Clearer Picture

Ha! You thought I had posted more pictures of those cute foster pups didn't you? Nope, not this time. I'm posting to let you know that I spoke with my nurse and I have a clearer picture of what this cycle is going to look like for us. This is exciting for someone like me who needs that darn "plan".

My last pill is tomorrow (I'm posting this at 2 in the morning, so Sunday). I will wait for my lovely period to show up, and that of course will be day 1. On day 2, I'm to go in and have an ultrasound and bloodwork for my baseline. Provided everything is looking as it should, Archie will get to take out his frustrations with me in the form of an IM shot. Lucky me (I'll be watching it from here on out, LOL). So, estrogen shots will hopefully start that night and he'll give them to me every 3 days x 5 doses-so about a 15 day span which will put us around the 26th being the last shot. I will go in around the 28th/29th for another ultrasound and bloodwork, check my uterine lining, blah blah blah, and if everything looks good at that point, Archie will start giving me daily progesterone shots in prep for the embryo transfer the following Friday, May 6th.

I am praying this works. I've prayed that I don't have to face "being done". That said, I feel more optimistic at this point that we wil be ok, regardless of what happens. It's funny, the last cycle I went into it being terrified of getting pregnant with twins (I know what life is like with one baby, I can only imagine two!), working out childcare, work, etc., and part way through it, I swear only by the grace of God, I just felt at peace with it. We would get through it, God wouldn't give us something we couldn't handle, and He doesn't set us up for failure. I had a plan (sort of) in place for work and childcare in the event that He blessed us with two more children. I felt comfortable with whatever He gave us, or didn't give us as the case would be. Was it still a shock to me when it didn't work? Absolutely because the cycle had gone so darn well. But you'll also notice that while I was upset for a good week or so, it dissipated, which I also believe was God's doing, just providing me that peace. So yes, I'm praying so hard that this works. But if it doesn't, we may have another cycle, and if that doesn't pan out, God will lead us another way, whether it be adoption, or whether we close this chapter of our lives. And it WILL be ok. We will be ok.